We spent many years searching for truth. We tried systems, practices, teachers, beliefs — anything that seemed to promise clarity or enlightenment. We even go to India, ready to sit with gurus, hoping someone there could finally give us the answers we could not find in our self. But the search don’t stop. We didn’t turn inward, we didn’t suddenly understand anything. We kept searching like before — for years — still believing someone out there had the truth.
We chased methods, followed teachers online, read books, tried meditations, repeated ideas, mantras and went in circles. Every time we thought we found “the way,” it led to another method, another promise, another disappointment. We were still depending on others. We were still looking outside of our self. We were still trying to become something. Nothing made sense. Nothing brought clarity. And still, we pushed on — because we truly believe enlightenment was waiting somewhere else.
Through all those years of confusion, disappointment, and searching, one thing never left us: the feeling that something real must exist. Even when the world felt heavy, even when everything in us feel broken, we still believed there had to be truth somewhere. we didn’t know where, we didn’t know how, but we couldn’t let go of that one certainty — that life could not be only suffering, searching, and emptiness. Something real had to exist beyond all this.
What happens if the mind is truly made up?
When the mind is truly made up, it stops genuinely searching. It no longer listens or investigates; it only collects arguments to defend its existing belief, spinning every new idea to fit what it already decided is true. In this state, the search for understanding is gone, replaced by the need to prove oneself right. Yet, the very essence of searching—whether for truth, clarity, or meaning—is rooted in openness, curiosity, and humility. Searching is not about finding what confirms your opinion; it is about letting go of certainty long enough to see what is real, to feel what cannot be explained, and to experience what cannot be argued into existence. The mind that clings to its conclusions blinds itself to this, while the mind that is willing to be unsure discovers layers of insight, subtlety, and understanding that no argument could ever capture. In the search of our life, this is the paradox: true knowing only arises when we stop trying to know in order to prove something, and begin to explore in order to see.
“Don’t ask questions if the mind is already made up; it doesn’t seek answers, solutions or the truth, only arguments. Arguments destroy reality. Arguments destroy the reality of our lives.”
Arguments create havoc in the world.
What would our lives be without a single argument?…………
“If you say it’s impossible, you destroy the answer before it even appears.
If you say maybe it’s possible, maybe it’s not, yet you want to find out, you break the habit of thought — which is a necessity.
The mind that searches without insisting, that questions without proving, is the mind that can see what reality truly is.
So ask yourself: is it possible? If it is, it is necessary to find out. It is very important to discover it for yourself.” (“Demand the truth with your whole being, but don’t demand it to prove you are right. Demand it to see clearly.”)
What is the reality of our thoughts?……. Don’t’ look it up, don’t listen to others, find it out for the self! Our own truth has far more meaning— It is our own reality!